Having a Happy Heart

Choosing to be happy.... well who wouldn't want to CHOOSE to be happy? Ok, there are people who find more "comfort" in their misery and depression. I have been that person many times. But choosing to be happy is not exactly that easy. Especially when your choice so often has been NOT happy. It is a daily choice, sometimes (and all too often for me) a minute to minute choice. I don't know why choosing the bad stuff is so much easier sometimes. Maybe because to be happy means you have to actually TAKE action. Whether you pray, read your Bible, watch your favorite movie, or hang out with a good friend - happiness is an action. Then there are those people who seem happy ALL the time. Always smiling and laughing like life is no big deal... Yeah... sometimes in my head, I am punching you in the face. No offense to any of you reading this. I am not trying to say that you are faking being happy. I am just saying that it can be hard to be around you when being happy is not my go-to choice. I know that most of those "happy" people have hard times as well, but they have learned to choose happy so often that it is more natural for them. 

Not really sure why I am even talking about this... besides the obvious of me learning to have a happy heart. I am sure I am not the only one that has felt this way, but when you are in the middle of your "happy journey" it is easy to feel alone. Well it is easy to feel like that in any kind of journey really. I feel like sharing what I'm thinking helps me to realize I am not alone and maybe, just maybe, this might help others going through the same thing. I think one of the biggest weapons the enemy has is isolation. Getting us alone, cutting us off from everyone and filling our heads with lies and what he says our "reality" is. God has shown me that I am not alone and I don't have to figure it all out by myself. I don't have anything to prove.

So I hope this helps someone... it already has helped me.

Love from my happy heart,

Alicia

Hello... It's been awhile.

Hello again!

So I know that I had said I would post a couple of times a week, but I have not. So I decided to finally set up another blog. Since the last one was named 30 Days, I felt like I should create a new one with a different title. It has been a few weeks since I have done this and felt like it was time to start again. Like I said I will not be posting everyday, but I will try to a couple of times a week.

I don' really have much to report. I had to put my CrossFit on hold for now due to the cost, but hopefully soon I can start it up again. I just started taking walks, today actually. I live fairly close to the east river and there is a nice walk/bike trail that goes along the water. Any activity at this point is good. Plus I have to make it a goal to get out of my apartment everyday (weather pending). I felt myself slipping into hermit status and I don't want that.

It is definitely beginning to feel like fall in the city. The humidity is down and there is a great cool breeze. I love this time of year here. I had never been much of a cold weather person, but since I moved to NY it is one of my favorites. Not the snow storms and craziness that is winter, but right before that. When the air starts to get crisp and everything feels clean... well as clean as NYC can be that is. The city goes all out for Christmas and everyone seems to be in great moods. Twinkly lights everywhere and window displays... it really is kind of magical.

Well that is it for now. I hope you all are doing well.

-Alicia